September 2012
1 post
Secret Dream #542
To procrastinate later. 
Sep 14th
February 2012
1 post
I love you.  I’m incredibly excited for your birthday and what it means for you.  You’ve always been more mature than I could ever be.  I like that a lot about you.  I couldn’t possibly be upset with you.  You know that better than I.  You’re always the most supportive person.  You’re always there for me when I am being incredibly grumpy, as I am opt to be in...
Feb 28th
October 2011
1 post
Best Tofu Soup I Have Ever Made
1. Silken Tofu. A POUND OF IT! YEAH! TOFU! >:D 2. Nummy mushrooms. Lots. 3. Two super long, thick, pulsating carrots.  4. Onion. Half of a massive head. 5. Dill. A Connor-sized handful. 6. Taters. Four, unpeeled, cut into really annoying sized, slim rectangular prisms so they cook better and look intense. 7. Green Onion. Another Connor-sized handful. Yeah… that’s the stuff. ...
Oct 25th
3 notes
September 2011
1 post
Sep 18th
30 notes
July 2011
1 post
Jul 2nd
4 notes
May 2011
12 posts
Secret Dream #232
To be able to reach the top of my microwave.
May 18th
1 note
How, I Will Never Know.
I am a fool. When I washed my face and pulled back my hair into a disorganized mess you ran out from the living room and into the bathroom with watery eyes and begged to see my face. I hid behind the towel until you led my head up by my chin. You told me I was beautiful and stared at me with loving eyes. I am a fool. When we lay in bed together and watched SALT for the first time and I nibbled...
May 16th
1 note
Sleep, sleep...
Sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep,...
May 12th
Classic III →
May 11th
1 note
True Classic II →
May 11th
2 notes
Practically My Killer Theme Song →
May 11th
1 note
True Classic I →
May 11th
1 note
Oh Mumiy Troll.  →
May 9th
1 note
Город
Город грустил со мной,  Летел за мною следом  Снегом  Вчерашним.  Старые кассеты,  откровенья,  До одуренья вспоминала,  Как летала.  Твои картинки  мне глаза сожгли.  Домой -слишком рано и пусто.  С тобой -  Слишком поздно и грустно.  Дышать, не мешать.  Странный чай.Не скучай.  Люди такие жадные,  Гуляли взгляды.  Рядом Бежали снов отрывки.  С самым Новым Годом,  Я разошлю открытки  Светлым,...
May 9th
2 notes
Zero
Делай со мной, что хочешь,  Стань моей тенью завтра,  Ломай мои пальцы,  Целуй мою кожу.  Так тянет остаться,  Но мы же похожи.  А-а-а в твоих же зрачочках страх,  И в них же чужая боль.  Девять - ноль  Ла-ра-ла-ла-ла-ла-а-ай  Думай, но только ночью.  Знаешь, я исчезаю внезапно  Сорви мои чувства,  Храни как гербарий  Но, в строгости мускул себя разбазарив…  А-а-а в твоих же зрачочках...
May 9th
2 notes
ListenKhanada  By Reporter. Absolutely lovely. 
May 1st
May 1st
1 note
April 2011
5 posts
Secret Dream #167
Never forgetting that I put my pen behind my ear. 
Apr 26th
1 note
Secret Dream #233
Opening up a muffin bakery shop to sell the muffins sprouted from my tentacles to amass a ridiculous wealth from the profit.  
Apr 26th
1 note
Secret Dream #232
Waking up to find that my hands have mutated into magical tentacles that sprout muffins covered in powdered sugar. 
Apr 26th
1 note
Over the past hundred or so tumblr browses...
… I have stumbled upon something that I can not help but point out and laugh about.  Really laugh about. Hard.  There are many female (and some male) units which complain of their boy/girlfriend of however long “not understanding”.  They go on several posts saying things along the lines of:  -0mgee mah b0yfran dus nawt get how I be feeling. -Life is so dark, so desolate, my...
Apr 26th
Sky
Staring up at the blank sky from my roof made me feel dizzy so I grabbed onto Connor and said I was afraid of falling up. He held me tightly to his chest as we lay together, watching the setting sun.  The sky was particularly blank, just a vastness of blue that forced me to shudder. I felt as though the infinite distance to the future might swallow me whole. The tighter I clung to Connor, the...
Apr 5th
2 notes
March 2011
5 posts
Secret Dream #234
That Connor were a female and I was a lesbian. 
Mar 22nd
Tuesday Is Coming
Did you bring your coat? I keep deactivating my facebook account.  People make me go “AEEEEEEEEEIIIIPP” .e_____________e. Physics final part one tomorrow. LEH EGGHAUSTED. 
Mar 21st
Mar 6th
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Mar 6th
February 2011
4 posts
Having Connor For A Boyfriend...
…is a little like waking up to a house crested with fine pearl diamonds and your ultimate, favorite breakfast served on a silver platinum platter. It’s a little like having to take a long trip but finding that all the buses are on time and that the streets are completely empty and devoid of traffic and stop lights.  It’s a little like winning the lottery with your very first...
Feb 11th
Secret Dream #236
To wake up one morning as a tall, Asian, eighteen year old boy who wears thick glasses and t-shirts under polo shirts. 
Feb 10th
Zodiac Career...
I know I am getting desperate… But I’m a Leo/Virgo cusp. D:  Leo Nothing like a mighty lion to lead your company into success and high profits. Fearless, inspiring, and independent, Leos work best when they are in the spotlight and love jobs that bring status and power. They can be high-maintenance and disruptive to a team environment, but their charm usually wins everyone over in...
Feb 3rd
Dear Nicholson
My Connor,  I write this with the fullest intention of bringing some non-pressing matters into your discretion. Vagina day is only a few days away and you have yet to disclose a listing of your desired courses. Let it be known that I have no intention of being serious on that given date and have already decided to leave all planning and event coordination to you. I will be clinging to your arm,...
Feb 2nd
January 2011
1 post
Gah! :'(
I can’t test. On anything.  I have like… Test anxiety. I can’t get into a good college with it. My life is one big failure.  I’m going to bed now. 
Jan 17th
December 2010
1 post
Dec 17th
3 notes
November 2010
3 posts
ListenHome is behind. The world ahead. And there are...
Nov 9th
Useless Information?
Ten Random Facts About Yourself: 1) My height fluctuates between 4’11” and 5’. (On good days.) 2) I am an impartial misanthrope. 3) I have quite the bit of patience with people, considering how I really feel. 4) I believe in my soulmate. 5) I can’t have sugar or sweets without feeling sick. 6) I was born and raised in Russia. 7) I am blindly devoted to my lover. 8) I am...
Nov 8th
Aawwh!!!
You just fell asleep on the phone and luckily it fell right by your face so I can your your breathing and itty bitty snoring sounds! <3 I am having the biggest cute-gasm ever!  Oh, I love you I love you I love you!!!  <3 It’s been 14 minutes and 43 seconds since you’ve fallen asleep.  I am hoping to hell that the signal doesn’t cut off.  I want to hear your breath...
Nov 7th
October 2010
4 posts
Intermittent Static
When it is late at night and that hum is clear as day, we listen harder. The static comes and goes with little notice. Until last night. We lay in bed together. Though you were miles away, it had never felt closer. And our voices trailed away too slowly.  Our eyes were shut against the lights of LEDs. It was when I heard your breathing slow that I realized what the static was. Imagine...
Oct 29th
Oct 10th
I am sorry.
I am sorry. I am sorry. I’m sorry. I am sorry. I am sorry, so sorry. I am sorry. I am sorry. I am sorry. I am sorry. I am so so so so sorry. I am sorry.  I’m sorry. I am sorry I am sorry I am sorry. I am sorry. I am sorry. I am sorry. I am sorry, so so sorry. I am sorry. I am sorry. I am sorry. I am so so so sorry. I am sorry. I am so so sorry. I am sorry. I am so sorry. I am sorry....
Oct 10th
Bure, Bure, Bure, Bure.
Ever had a really catchy song stuck in your head? THOUSANDS OF CATCHY SONGS AT THE SAME TIME!?  Does it all sound like some wounded animal now? Fantasmal.  Here is a tiny sample of what has been playing though my head all day:  She took her winter coat, from its plastic wrapper. Sunshine, we all see the same sky. You can’t even see the sky. When the music stops, take a tip from me,...
Oct 9th
August 2010
2 posts
1 tag
Aug 23rd
Problem Solved.
I miss you. A lot. A lot, a lot. Yes, I know I’m smothering you. Yes, I know you need to breathe, but can’t you be breathing within a closer proximity? It’s only been five days since I’ve seen you, and you’ve been sweet enough to call me and listen to my delusional rants and pointless chatter… But that doesn’t mean I actually got to spend time with...
Aug 14th
July 2010
3 posts
"I Write Like Stephen King" →
Good to know websites recognize my reading choices. xD
Jul 27th
Not What Others Think...
I’ve been having a lot of trouble lately. I have been failing at everything I attempt. I don’t know why or how. I can’t seem to get myself together anymore. I don’t do well, I am not as smart as everyone likes to assume.  Just because you have a lexicon of a language does not mean that you are intelligent.  It’s bothering me a lot how everyone assumes I do...
Jul 12th
So Few Things with You, My Love.
There are so many things I want to do for you. So many things I want to do with you. Here are just a few of them, Connor. I hope we can accomplish at least half of these few.   I want to make you happy. Honestly, genuinely, naturally happy. I want to get through our entire movie list, no matter how impossible it seems. I want to wake you up with the greatest breakfast of your life… EVERY...
Jul 3rd
1 note
June 2010
10 posts
Jun 19th
Doux et Sucré.
Tes lèvres… Votre sourire. La façon dont votre yeux brillent quand vous êtes heureux. Oh, ce que je donnerais pour vous voir. Vous êtes ce que je veux. Vous êtes tout ce que je veux. I feel like I am ready to tell you what I have been holding back.  You are what is behind all of my happiness and joy lately. At the very core of what is right is your smile.  I love what you have done to...
Jun 15th
No sir, YOU hang up first. D:<
herecomessharon: bednayaleesa: I mean it.  Yep… D:< DO IT!  >_>;; *whimper* I actually don’t want you to go. </3 At least he talks to you on the phone! :PP Phone conversations are awkward when I have them, so I’m afraid to call him >.< And yeah. But I KNOW WHAT YOU MEAN! He’s the one who usually calls. xD He makes me so happy, you wouldn’t even believe...
Jun 15th
1 note
No sir, YOU hang up first. D:<
I mean it.  Yep… D:< DO IT!  >_>;; *whimper* I actually don’t want you to go. </3
Jun 14th
1 note
ListenI am always so afraid to wake you. I am afraid to...
Jun 13th